Getting Pregnant

This blog is going to start by documenting of my journey on becoming a mom.  Now you all are probably thinking, "Why post such personal information on the internet?" The reason being, pretty much for myself.  I want to remember these moments of this journey.  I want to be able to look back and remember the details.  So these related posts might actually be kind of boring {any maybe a little TMI}, so I apologize :)  And you're probably wondering where my other posts went.  I took them off the blog, but saved them.  I just felt this blog was getting so unorganized and crazy and really just wanted a fresh, new start!  

So from the beginning...

Chris and I knew the moment we decided we want to be married, we wanted a family as well {eventually}.  I remember right after we got married, Chris really wanted to start having kids and I said, "Heck no!"  I was only 20 years old and thought that idea was absurd.  I really wanted to be older, more mature, more stable, and have plenty of time with my man before we brought another person into the family.  So, we settled for a dog.  Best decision ever.  Our pup is such a wonderful dog and we seriously think of her as our child.  Roxy is such a fun dog to have and we have such fun memories with her!  

Fast forward 2 1/2 years later, December 2010.  That was when we both were on the same page and were ready to start our family!  We were both baby hungry {me probably a little more}.  I always have loved babies and kids and once the idea of having one of my own entered my mind, that idea just took over and knew I had to do something about it.  That's when I went to my lady doctor to get it all checked out.  She said I was good to go! Baby time! ;)

Easier said than done.  Getting pregnant pretty much became my main priority.  I studied all the facts, and really focused on my ovulating and timing as accurately as possible.  I got pretty good at it and it almost became routine.  I even read a bunch of books on natural ways of conceiving. 

About 2 months in, I knew I was pregnant.  I had all the symptoms and was over a week late.  I had an overnight in San Francisco and had the most intense cramps I have ever felt in my life.  I was literally on the bathroom floor in a ball all night.  I also had SEVERE bleeding.  Nothing like I had ever had.  It looked like a horror show {sorry for the visual}.  I called my mom and she knew I had a miscarriage.  I called in sick from work and they flew me back home.  Dealing with that was pretty rough, but I knew it was something that wasn't uncommon, so I knew I had to not give up! We kept on trying but still not pregnant.

Well after a year of that madness, I gave my doctor a visit to see what the heck was going on.  She made me come in to get blood work done to check my ovulation.  Apparently,  I wasn't ovulating!  What the heck.  I had all the signs of ovulating and even took an ovulation test to make sure and it was positive. I was so confused.  So my doctor put me on Clomid to help me with my ovulation. Honestly, the thought of that scared me.  I have read about it and heard of scary side effects that I just did not want to deal with.  But I trusted my doctor and decided to go along with it.  

So I was now prescribed 50 mg of Clomid a day for the 5 days after my cycle.  Well after 6 months, my monthly visitor never came! I was so confused.  Of course, perfect timing right after I was prescribed medicine that I'm supposed to take after my period, I never get one.  Feeling so frustrated I thought that maybe this was a sign from above.  Maybe this isn't my time yet.  I am a big believer on everything happens for a reason.  I also believe Heavenly Father will never give you a battle he thinks you can't handle.  

Chris and I kinda took it as a sign and stopped trying.  It was putting way to much pressure and stress on us and our relationship.  It was nice to not be so focused on it all the time and to think about other things.  We have spent our time seeing the world, going to concerts, movies, training for a half marathon, and really focusing on God's plan for us at the time, which was to enjoy each other!

But now we are full speed, back on the baby band wagon!  So last week, I went back to see my lovely doctor who said, I may have a thyroid condition which can cause irregular cycles and infertility.  But she said, it's fixable. We will see how my blood tests come back.  If it's not my thyroid, she is going to put me back on Clomid, along with a prescription called Provera to help get my cycles back on track.
I couldn't have been this strong without the support of my wonderful husband.  He has been my rock through all of this. I just love him so much!
 I am so nervous and anxious to just be done with this process, but I know it will only make me appreciate being a mom so much more :)  Wish us luck!